Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Overcoming Fear!!

Sikkim (a small state in India) was going through political turmoil. I was studying in Pelling, a small town in Sikkim. A very beautiful place with a scenic beauty. Every morning when I opened the window of my room in the Hostel, I got this awesome view of Mt Kanchenjunga, shining bright with sun rays falling on the peaks...I thought I was so lucky to be studying in such a beautiful place on Earth. Our school was on top of a hill surrounded by greenery & woods. We could hear birds chirping when the class was quiet.It was wonderful!!


That day was same as other days,nothing unusual. We were having classes on the ground floor.Suddenly there was lot of noise, people shouting slogans could be heard from our class.The sound of slogans were becoming louder & louder& then I could see a man with red pullover, who was the leader, I came to know later, followed by a group of people, shouting slogans & coming towards our school. Suddenly everything changed,everybody, even my teacher was in panic. All started to run here & there. It was chaos!! I could not understand that at times, how easily rules are broken under pressure...No Teacher..No Discipline..No Permission....You are on your own....I was too small to understand the bigger issues going around in Sikkim politics....the future of Sikkim.... I quickly decided to jump through the window & ran down the hill towards the Hostel. Everybody was running through the door & going to the front area of the school but I knew that the procession would be there & the same happened.


I was out of breath when I reached Hostel. Dormitory was deserted...no one was there...my heart sank...just shocking!! I ran outside to the garden, there was an old tree with a big hole in the trunk. I hid myself inside the hole & started praying non stop...The sounds of the slogans were becoming dimmer & dimmer as I sat there for don't know how many hours....


I came out of the hole & went back to the Hostel to check whether anybody had returned from school, found few students. They were talking about some 'jeeps' stationed outside our Hostel, ready to take us in various directions for some purpose. I could not imagine how these stupid people could take us from here without our parents' permission to any place that I don't know & why? I was too afraid now..thought of loosing my parents. I was too small to take any decision myself. I didn't know how to contact my parents..My Hostel Super was also missing, everything was in total mess & I was amidst this, in an immensely miserable situation.. Fear was gripping me from all sides now! I took a small hand bag, packed few clothes & went out of the Hostel gate.


There were three 'jeeps'. I thought that I have to listen now to these stupid people!! Then suddenly I heard a word "Jorethang"..my grandfather's home town. One of the vehicles was going there. Without wasting a single moment, I jumped & sat at the back seat....I thought I was safe for the time being....my heart was still beating fast.I was praying all the way.Then as I was travelling, I came to know that the girls were picked up for cooking food for them in different camps....what rubbish!! I thought, how can they do this to me, I was too small to cook! & even my mother didn't have to cook all the time at home, except for some special occasion, there was always a cook at home.


As our jeep entered Jorethang,I was thrilled.As soon as it stopped I jumped out of the back seat & started running towards my grandfather's house without looking back.His house was right at the heart of the market place in Jorethang. My mother, that time was standing at the terrace & she saw me running towards the house. She was totally shocked to see me like this. I was so happy to reunite with my parents that day. My parents too had to leave their house in Gayzing, a place very near to Pelling, due to disturbances there. 


That day, if there had been a jeep to Gayzing, then surely I would have preferred that instead of Jorethang but God had better plans with him.


God never disheartens his followers, they are put to test but God is always there watching, guiding & helping us find our ways....so that you never get lost. 

Monday, January 30, 2012

Let not fear overcome you;
Fear is the key to stop you going further.
Have courage to accept & compassion to love.

Saturday, January 28, 2012


Lord, give me a quiet mind,
That I might listen;
A gentle tone of voice
That I may comfort others.
A sound & healthy body,
That I may share.....
In the joy of walking,
And leaping & running.
And a good sense of direction,
So I might know where am I going.

 Ruskin Bond

Friday, January 27, 2012


Rhythm of Life

Life is strange;
It moves on its pace.
It isn't always smooth.
Sometimes its Rough,
Sometimes its Rosy.
Sometimes its bubbling with Joy..
& in the very next moment...
Its 'troubles & 'sorrows'.
But still I love 'Life'
Because its the Greatest Gift I've got.
So I exhale & rejoice & celebrate the present moment....
For I know nothing is Permanent!!!!
 —

Thursday, January 26, 2012

27/01/12...a small incident long time back..!

Yesterday, I got fever & had much time to think as I had not much to do except taking rest. I remembered my childhood days & I recollected the moment when I had suffered from severe stomach infection when I was in school hostel. That day I still remember when my holidays were to start & I was ready to go home with all my things packed, waiting for my father to take me home. And then it started, I had severe stomach pain & cramps & was running to the toilet. I literally had no time to sit for a second, it was getting severe & severe. I couldn't imagine myself going home & I was mentally & physically exhausted. Those days my mother was a devotee of Satya Sai Baba & we use to have 'get together' & have bhajans at home. I started chanting "Om Sai Baba" non stop. And it worked. I didn't have problems till I reached home. It was one hour journey to home. I couldn't go to school for one whole month as I was under medication.
Yesterday as I was sharing this incident with my husband, I thought that actually if you chant on anybody's name with your pure heart it always works. And again I came to realize that God has no form, it is inside each human being. Sai Baba, Ramkrishna, Jesus, Gurunanak, Muhammad, Buddha...they were all human beings. And if you call them with your pure heart ...it always works....!
There are always such small incidents in everybody's life & there is so much to learn from.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

25/01/12.....My first day on this blog!

Today is my first day on this Blog. I have a page on this name in FB. I have been  writing or rather scribbling lines everyday on my page in FB, that makes me . I am not a great writer but I feel that everyone on this earth has something to do, or a purpose to serve, that he/she likes, that is closest to his/her heart.

I was actually inspired to what I am doing today is after reading a book by Sogyal Rinpoche..'The Tibetan Book of Living & Dying'. My life changed after reading this book. I had so many questions on my mind regarding so many things that my small intellect could not comprehend. Today I am a Happy person & live to make other people happy too..:))