Offering..

I ponder...
Yet I wonder!!
Was it beautiful,
When younger?

People falter
At life's alter.
Become stronger,

Yet find no answer.

Get older
More wiser....
Become adviser..
Still find no answer.

 I ponder..              
Yet I wonder!!
Was it beautiful,
When younger?

I reach further..
Become quieter.
More of a listener
Than adviser.                                                                                                                                            

And now...
I am not older
I am not stronger
I am not an adviser
Not even wiser..

I offer all these,
As a prayer
At your alter.
Come within me..
Enlighten me..
Solve all that
Unsolved within me.

                                                  rex                                                                                                                                                          

emotions strong...

Why I cry? Why my tears roll down my cheeks so often for a daughter or a son. A son whose mother I have never met, who has lost his father a few months back..& now leaving her mother behind with sweet memories he had shared once with her & his father. He is going overseas. But why I cry aloud & want to say, "Don't leave your mother behind, life is too short". Was it me crying for My son? A mother who is really missing her only son., who is also far from her.But my son is coming home soon, then why I cry?
Why I cry for a daughter who is going through a whirlpool of emotions due to her disturbances in her own life...fighting for existence in everyday life...unsettled.Why my tears roll down my cheeks unknowingly when I hug her tight & tell her "Be strong , you are a strong child". Was it me telling myself to be strong? To be strong enough to fight this life?
So why I cry? Some Doctor or a Psychiatrist or a Teacher might find out some known reasons for this outcome. But oh Life!! Do we have any answers for all our questions??
We all are in a cycle of life....going through whirlpools of emotions. I am just a mere human being trying to understand the unknown
Some days are happy and some are just mixed. But its true...if you don't go through sorrow & suffering, you won't really enjoy when happiness comes to you. Because if you get everything in life what you want then you will loose the meaning of happiness. And you just don't understand what happiness is, you are disillusioned. And vice versa if you don't understand what sorrow is  ..then life becomes like a blank paper..without anything...no colors.....

Have a Good Day friends! Every emotion matters in your life, they make us what we are. 

On forgiving...

To forgive is not an easy thing , you will say. Once in a while in everybody's life ...somewhere someday someone has done wrong to you and for that you are not always ready to forgive the person. But we all try to forgive as the time moves on...and we do forgive successfully sometimes. But what if, you are the doer and the victim is on the other side. To forgive others and move on with life is lot easier than forgiving oneself. Its really hard. It takes a whole life ...to forgive oneself...because you can never forgive yourself.
So think about it and start working on this. Make a better life, leave hatred, anger, selfishness, ego. Only Love ...Yes Love heals everything in the long run...'Only Love'!!!

Have a great day friends!!!!!

In memory of...

So many a times, when life is going smoothly, we hear a sudden news that stirs our lives & feelings & make us think about Life once again....everything becomes so clear. Impermanence!
Last month during Durga Puja festival, we had shared such beautiful moments together, shared our feelings..laughter ..! Till a few days back everything was so real..but today it's not! She is no more with us.Its just shocking! She was Sandeep's ( my elder sister's son) mother in law. Its been only one & a half year since Sandeep got married. We all had gone to Namchi for the marriage, a beautiful hill station in Sikkim. Had a wonderful time there. So happy was she & her husband. They were a peace loving, hospitable & caring couple, I have ever met! In a very short period of time , she conquered our hearts.When I met her this time, she told me that she was going to have a house warming party @ the newly bought flat here in Kolkata. 
We plan something & God has some other plans...irony of life...or rather The Life, of which we don't know anything till now. So many things are just unknown to us..Why things happen? A veil that separates us from the Truth. The Truth that all the Buddhas of yesteryear tried to find out. 
Not one life is enough to find it ..have to born again & again to find the Truth or may be not...whatever we are experiencing & will experience is all that is, so called Life.
Still in the midst of all, we all will miss her & all those whom we have lost & live only in our memories! 
Let they be in peace wherever they are!

Believe....

Not all days are happy...We all come across such days when we are at our lowest.But some days are there when our souls are filled with compassion, love, forgiveness, happiness..all coming together. Each & everybody goes through such moments in life.This is the moment when we are closest to God.....God as I say, not a person..but our soul..that is supreme God. Each & every person is closest to God sometime or the other. If we think deeply & practice this, we will believe in ourselves & can find victory over anything.

We have profound energy to do some good, to think good & pray for everyone. 
Have a great day friends!!!

On mentoring.

Sometimes in life we are confused like 'which is the right way to go ?' We confide things or secrets with whom we love. But sometimes so happens, we just leave ourselves to the mercy of our so called mentors. And the mentor thinks whatever he /she is doing is the correct way. The mentor forgets that in some point of life he/she could become the victim & could be sitting on the other side. Life is so unpredictable, you never know what is going to happen in the very next moment. The mentor never realizes that one day the victim may come out of the troubled situation & move on with life & he/she could be facing troubles in life. The teacher or the mentor has not always the right ways of mentoring. The mistakes the mentor makes at that time is irreversible. Whenever a problem arises it should be handled with lot of care & respect. The matter should be discussed only between the mentor & the victim & not anyone else. A small mistake in life can create hell in one's life.
As Patrul Rinpoche says:

In the beginning, skillfully examine the teacher.
In the middle, skillfully follow him.
In the end skillfully emulate his realization & action.
A disciple who does this is on the authentic path.

lonely

Life....
How lonely you are..
Tired of moving from one soul to another..
Never can settle or take rest on one.
Endlessly on a search for That soul...
That will give you peace & so shall you rest,
But alas!! all in vain...
You will die a million deaths...every moment..
Oh Life! You are a loner.
I pity you...I pity you!

rex

                              

Search for true nature of mind...

In Tibetan there is a saying" If you are too clever, you could miss the point." Patrul Rinpoche said,"The logical mind seems interesting, but it is the seed of delusion." In Tibet it is said, " Theories are like patches of a coat,one day they just wear off."
One Great master in the last century had a disciple who was very thick headed. The master had taught him again & again, trying to introduce him to the true nature of mind. Still he did not get it. Finally, the master became furious & told him, "Look, I want you to carry this bag full of barley up to the top of that mountain over there. But you must not stop & rest. Just keep on going until you reach the top." The disciple was a simple man, but he had unshakable devotion & trust in his master & he did exactly what he had been told. The bag was heavy. He picked it up & started up the slope of the mountain, not daring to stop. He just walked & walked. And the bag got heavier & heavier.It took him a long time. At last when he reached the top, he dropped the bag. He slumped to the ground, overcome with exhaustion but deeply relaxed. He felt the fresh air on his face. All his resistance had dissolved and,with it, his ordinary mind. Everything just seemed to stop. at that moment, he suddenly realized the nature of his mind." Ah! This is what my master has been showing me all along," he thought. he ran down the mountain and, against all convention, burst into his master's room."I think I've got it now....I've really got it!"

It is the experience that will give you the fearlessness to negotiate life & death.

Taken from 'The Tibetan Book of Living & Dying'

memories of Pelling....

I walked through the forest
In a cold day;
Picked up berries 
On my way.

Tall pines & spruces 
Shouldered me;
From the eyes of wolves
And deadly beasts.

White shining peaks
Greeted me;
With open arms
And blissful glee.


Mist hanging like a curtain
Over the hill;
That never unveiled
Without their will.


I heard of white swans
In the lake;
And eyes of snakes
Guarded the place.

But I know not
Whether they were true;
As a kid
I believed it too.

Such innocent memories
Of those days;
I pray to God
To remain always!

                                       rex

If I was never born...

If I was never born...
I wouldn't have realized what LIFE is?
If I was never born...
I wouldn't have seen such beauty abundance!
If I was never born...
You wouldn't have come in my LIFE.
If I was never born...
I would have been bereft of emotions.
If I was never born..
I would have missed this beautiful Earth & the Universe, of which I am a part.
Then why complain about LIFE??
If you were never born..
You wouldn't have ever realized,
Who or What you are.

                                                                            
rex

Lost in thoughts...

Lost in thoughts...
Lost in emotions.
Brings me in a nowhere land...
Where birds don't chirp...
Sun doesn't rise..
People don't speak.
Silence prevails...
I float in air...
Where no bird can reach..
I reach where no one can,
I see what no one sees.
Is it what happens when one dies..??

                                                        rex

seeking happiness

Yet again I was in a whirlpool of emotions yesterday. I returned to 'The Book of Living & Dying" where I found this beautiful quote by Shatideva..
"Whatever joy there is in this world
All comes from desiring others to be happy,
And whatever suffering there is in this world 
All comes from myself to be happy"

As I read this all my confusions got clear. It was me who in seeking happiness was suffering.But yet again I went to think deeply on this note.....is it wrong to seek happiness?? Is it wrong to think of my beloved ones to be near me & suffer?? Is it too harsh of me to wish this ?? I think no...as we are created in this universe with all the emotions within us which makes us human. We humans are bestowed with such a beautiful gift of emotions & these emotions helps us to live our lives...be happy, sad, cry, get angry, rejoice. If we did not have these emotions then our lives would have become like a fruitless tree or a stone. We should thus enjoy every bit of emotions& live our lives fully & of course without hurting anyone.

Seeking happiness is not wrong. How you seek is what matters.
If my tears give me joy ,
Then my tears are my true friends.
If my anger gives me relief,
Then my anger is my friend.
If my loneliness gives me happiness, 
Then my loneliness is my best friend.

to my beloved mother

When I am lost ... 
In a deep dungeon of darkness;
I recall you...
Recall your words,
Recall your smiling face,
Recall your fight with life.
Recall your pain,
Recall your compassion & kindness.
It gives me a stronger me.
Ready to take charge of life..
Life that is still to go on...
Life that has to be finished to the end,
With lot of courage & happiness.

rex

On attitude....

Make compassion & kindness your attitude. Life will become more fruitful with less strain & unhappiness. Each day at every step & everything , humans show their attitude of arrogance, ego, pride...; its human again people are going to say. But if you think for a while you will know that how much unhappiness its going to bring you or already bringing you. Humans are going towards unthinkable , unreachable places; some achieve what they want..& some not......but while achieving these there is so much at stake..like your family, your loved ones...
Its good when humans achieve good things in life....in the field of medicines..in agriculture...technology etc..Whatever you achieve, a small achievement or a bigger one...one should be humble & full of compassion. The more you change the more you are happy. Happiness will surround you; protect you from ego, arrogance, anger, selfishness & all the negative elements of life.

Expectations...

Its human that expectations are bound to come . Its hard not to expect. But have you ever thought why you expect? If you think deeply you will know that everything generates in your mind. If you put seeds of expectations in your mind , it will start growing & if you keep on giving water & minerals to it, it will one day grow to become a full grown tree that will be able to produce fruits & more seeds of expectations. If you leave it like this it will grow larger & larger & one day you will see that you are helpless & everything is out of control. The more you expect the more you become helpless & suffer the consequences.
So first thing you do is make your mind clear whenever you are giving something material or love to anyone , you should give without any expectation....that you will get it back. Then only you will become free of suffering & unhappiness. This way you can start practicing & one day you will see that you are at peace. You will have a pure mind, free of worries & tensions. And one more important thing is never try to remember what you have done for somebody.....just do it & forget. 
Yes I try everyday & I keep trying .....& I know you all too will try it from today.

When I look Back...

What is life??
This question has over and over again haunted me.
Read few books, poems, tried to learn from the lives of great people....to find the truth.
What is life??
But now at this point of "life", when I look back...
I see life, staring at me from all the nooks & corners of it.
I can see life ..
So colorful, wonderful, mesmerizing, mischievous, painful, rejoicing, happy, sad, angry........
It is painted with all the colors.
And I love all the colors in it as it has made my life a full circle.
Its not the end ..There is still more to come....
I wait eagerly like a child to see more of it.
Its exciting, exhilarating..full of mysteries...
As you don't know what is stored for you.
As I sit today writing this blog that I had never imagined in my life 20 yrs back.
I sit in this small flat, that I had never dreamt of...
When my son was born I never knew what he will become after 20 yrs.
But now I know what a beautiful man he has become.
I don't know what else is stored for me in this remaining "life".
I walk on enjoying the path of "life" every moment.
This not knowing makes this "life" so unpredictable & yet so beautiful!!

Yes! "life" continues..as I look back!

An ode to a leaf

Silently you hang to a tree.
Transforming its beauty;
Without uttering a single word;
Everyday toiling to keep the tree standing tall.
Giving all what you have...
Just to see the tree happy!


Spring comes..the tree blooms with flowers...beautiful!!
Eyes stand & stare at the beauty.
Not once they see the beauty of leaves hidden inside it...


Seasons come, seasons go...
You try to hold on to the tree all along...
But alas! you dry and fall all over the ground..
Still you don't give up till your last breath..
You blend with the soil to keep the tree alive.

Prayer

Pray everyday;  pray all the time.
Pray not to achieve something...
Pray not to fulfill your desires...
Pray not to get materialistic benefits..
But pray for inner peace..


Prayers do not get you things in life..
Its a wrong notion.
Prayer is like food for your soul..
Pray to be a good human being,
Pray to be kind at heart,
Pray to be a person with compassion.


If you are good, then good follows you everywhere.
Do not get confused with Prayer & Achievement.
Good or Bad are the two faces of life.
& you should accept it..
All good things do not happen all the time...Bad too knocks at your door.
Accept it & Pray for the Good & the Bad too.
Prayers keep you calm & you see things better & it helps you to lead a better & happy life.

Change...

Yes, change is the word. Everything changes...
People change, situations change, relations change..
Change is the key ..to everything.
Nothing remains the same forever.
What is today; 'is' not 'the' tomorrow.
If you are thinking you are safe & secured,
You are mistaken.
If you are thinking you are dumped & depressed,
You are mistaken.
If you are thinking negative,
You are still mistaken.
If you have nothing today,
You are mistaken.
Your tomorrow 'is' never the same.
Who knows what is stored for tomorrow.
Nothing is sure...
And if you are sure,
You are again mistaken.
Whatever happens, happens for Good or Bad.
Take life as it comes,
Because if you don't, you are mistaken.

Life on its own pace & rhythm

We are all born in this world to fulfill our dreams...unfinished..incomplete, somewhere, someplace in the past.As I look down on Earth from the space I cannot see a spec of human being..simply a blue & green ball moving on its own pace & rhythm unknown of unlimited dreams of men, women & children.


As I sit under the sky at night, I see stars & planets. It gives me a strange feeling..we all are like small ants moving out of our houses when the day breaks to various destinations to do our jobs while some stay back and in the evening come back to our respective homes or shelters. Some don't come back but they wish to be back with their friends & family.


Life is strange, basically we all are doing the same thing but our ways are different, our intentions are different. We all are playing our roles. Our need based society throws us in different situations & circumstances & we flow with it.

But again as I look down on Earth from the space I cannot see a spec of human being..simply a blue & green ball moving on its own pace & rhythm.

A glimpse of Heaven

A few days back I shared a near death experience with my friends on FB and today I am sharing with you.
It was an usual Sunday morning in Darjeeling, a beautiful hill station in West Bengal, India. I was 19. It was winter and the weather was too cold, we had already experienced snowfall that year. I use to live with my mom, dad & brother. The house had a partition between the kitchen & the bathroom....yeah our 2 bed roomed apartment was not so spacious. In winter time my mother use to light a fire out of coal and keep it in the kitchen so that the bathroom remained warm. We were all ignorant of the fact that coal produced methane gas and if this happened in a closed room, it may cause the depletion of oxygen in the room and the person may get killed.
I had just finished bathing and started feeling dizzy. Slowly everything was blur in front of me. I could not open the door, my fingers were numb. I couldn't breathe properly. There was a huge window and I remember tapping on the glass.I could see faces, all blur, shouting at me, but I couldn't hear them. I somehow opened the door and after that I couldn't remember anything. 

I was in the most beautiful garden that I had ever seen. It was full of beautiful flowers ..especially I remember, pink, white, blue, purple & yellow. I was all dressed in white walking alone or rather floating. There were narrow paths in between the flower beds. I was in so much peace and happiness. I was alone and I was least bothered about my family or friends. It was an extra ordinary feeling that I can never describe. I don't know for how long I was there.Time had stopped for me. I could hear voices coming from far, very far away. I think I was regaining my consciousness. 
When I totally regained my consciousness, my mother was literally yelling in my ear, crying and calling my name, holding me in her arms. I found myself surrounded by neighbors and well wishers and my mom all in tears. I can make out that she thought she had lost me. She asked me afterwards how couldn't I hear her, but I had no answer. For ten minutes I had no connection with the world but I had this wonderful experience that I can never forget in my whole life. My mother was so happy to get me back. And yes that day I think I saw heaven and I forgot everything .
We are born in this world to experience ..suffering, pain,anger,detachment, cruelty, love, hatred, compassion, togetherness..& so many other emotions. We miss all these emotions in Heaven because you are nobody there. But on Earth you are somebody. So experience life and enjoy every moment of it. But make sure which emotions you choose to live your life fully.

On Compassion..

Many people mistakenly assume that compassion is a religious practice. This is not the case.It is true that compassion is central to the ethical teachings of all the major religious traditions, but in itself it is not a religious value. Many animals can appreciate it and certainly mammals have a capacity for it.


Many people also assume that feeling compassion for others is only good for the others and not for oneself. This is also incorrect. Whether or not our kindness brings benefit to others will depend on a great many factors, some of which will be outside our control. But whether we succeed in bringing benefit to others or not, the first beneficiary of compassion is always oneself. When compassion or warmheartedness, arises us and shifts our focus away from our own narrow self- interest, it is as if we open an inner door. Compassion reduces fear, boosts our confidence and brings us inner strength. By reducing distrust, it opens us to others and brings us a sense of connection with them and a sense of purpose and meaning of life. compassion also gives us respite from our own difficulties. 

By Dalai Lama

I still move on....

People make you happy;
People make you cry.
I try to make my heart strong to overcome sadness.
As I write these words I'm sad very sad deep inside.
But how to recover myself...because I know Life does not wait for anyone;
It moves on....
And so I too must.
If I not, still Life moves on...
Time is ticking so is Life.
I do not have any control on it.
In whatever way it comes , I have to accept it.
I sit without doing anything...
Still Life moves on pushing me ahead...
Making my days on this earth shorter.
Time & Breath, I suppose are same.

You do not have any control on them.
It just keeps on moving whether you like it or not.
But yes, Breath stops one day..But
Time keeps on moving.......

What is Life?

I see life passing by everyday...motionless, tiptoed...
It plays with me hide & seek.
In a blink of my eye, its gone..
I try to catch hold of it but in vain,
I know not where is it ...?
Motionless, tiptoed...passing by.
I see life changing every second, minute, hour,days,years..

Motionless ..tiptoed!
I try to catch hold of it in my eyes never to open it again,
But alas! it escapes...
I see life in the morning in the chirping of birds,
I see life in my daily chores,
I see life on my mobile calls,
I see life saying good bye..
Standing alone watching the children going to school.
I see life in the sound of a cycle bell or a rickshaw, a car passing by...!
In the evenings setting of the Sun,
Keeping the promise to rise again tomorrow..I see life
Waiting for life to come back home..
Sit by my side & share my stories.
I try to catch hold of the moments but again in vain...it escapes!
I wish I could catch hold of life & lock it in a closet,
Never to open it again....
When my last hour will come,
I'll catch life in my eyes & never open it or let it escape,
I'll make sure it remains with me forever & ever.

Few notes

As I sweep & clean my house everyday;

I sweep & clean my mind too of dirt, gathered whole day,

 through meditation & prayer.

Live each moment as if you have never lived before;

As if you are going to die tomorrow.

Rejoice Death as much as Birth.

Then only you'll live truly.( its really difficult...)

We are all but a lonely rider;

All alone to conquer the world.

There is a thin line between sane & insane.

One is called 'sane' when he/she is doing as most of the other people do or behave.

Can we draw a line between a sane and an insane?

Pain & suffering will be always a part of our lives.

But how to cope with it is 'living life'.

Need based society always makes you unhappy.

Do not think what you would have;

Think what you have & you can do to make your life better.

I'm still happy without you,

I find you within.....!

Travelers...

In this journey of life, we meet so many people; touching so many lives. Sometimes living their life unknowingly, sharing, caring, laughing together. Sharing sad & happy moments of our lives.
Sometimes we often meet people whom we just pass by...just one glance as if stories untold...Like 
A person standing at the door...
A beggar sitting by the pavement,
A vendor selling things,
A musician playing his/her favorite instrument,
A traveler sitting by your side on a plane, car, a bus...,
Stories passing by untold & unknown.
Like my husband says"everyone's life is a book of short stories".Every person has something to tell.
Questions arise in my mind.....
Is it me standing at the door...?
selling things.....
Playing a guitar...
A traveler.....?
Are we all travelers going round & round in search of unknown in different forms & situations... encountering souls we are destined to meet? I do not believe in destiny though..but who am I to preach ?
When I just stay calm..thoughts arise in me one by one & I just keep writing...
'Then I become YOU;
And YOU become I.
There is no difference between I & YOU.
We all are one.
One seed, One Soul!!

inner voice....

Our Paths may differ;
But our goals must be the same.
Our thoughts may differ;
But our intentions must be the same .
Our race may differ;
But our priorities must be the same.
Our beliefs may differ;
But our prayers must be the same.
Our cultures may differ;
But our warmth must be the same.

Our ideas may differ;

But our aims must be the same.
Our boundaries may differ;
But our feelings must be the same.

WE the human race are ONE.
We all must work for Humanity in whatever small way we can,

And not just for 'Self' but for Everyone.

HAPPINESS :)

The word Happiness is used so very often and so very easily by everybody but now everyone in this world today is really trying hard to understand the real meaning of Happiness. Everybody is looking for Happiness. Happiness in daily soaps on TV, shopping, promotion in the field of job, travel, food, listening to songs on radio etc, internet : that has opened a world of entertainment, fulfilling dreams, appreciations..etc. Everyone is trying to catch hold of Happiness by 'getting' or 'achieving' something. Yes, we all get Happiness in all these things but somewhere inside we are always hungry for Happiness because these Happiness are always momentary,it fades away soon. Happiness is a matter of heart & the heart is within us & what our heart needs is not all these things, it craves for Real Happiness.....TRUTH.      

We can get Happiness through meditation. whichever God you pray to, just sit in front of him/her & pray or chant with your pure heart & meditate on his/her name. You will feel the difference immediately. Your life will be filled with Happiness inspite of problems & difficulties in your daily life. At least once in a day try to meditate, you will be experiencing tranquility for a whole day..whole month..a year..& years to come..!


Here I quote..."In the stillness & silence of meditation we glimpse & return to that deep inner nature that we have so long ago lost sight of amid the busyness & distraction of our mind. Meditation, then, is bringing the mind home."  Sogyal Rinpoche.

Life without war....

War is a disease infected with power, popularity, greed, hatred, fame, ego, ruthlessness .......
Divides the Earth into pieces;
Destroying Dreams & relations once created with love.
Cuts Hearts into small pieces never to be recognized again by their loved ones...
I know, where there is oppression...revolt is soon to come, 
But why they oppress & why they revolt, why can't we solve the problems with love...Life is too short...why can't people have love & compassion for each other 
and stay together ?
Do you ask questions after the change?
Are you alright?
Has your life changed or has become better than before?


WAR IS NOT A SOLUTION, LOVE IS.....!!

LET US CREATE A BETTER WORLD FOR BETTER LIVING....!!

Punishment or Opportunity !

As I sit alone at home locking myself from the outside world in a tiny flat....
Memories fly past me....I try to catch some & some I try to release in the thin air,
Never to come back again....
So many things had happened in the past....
Many to be remembered & cherish...
And few to be forgotten forever.

The moment of solitude that I got now,
I don't know whether it has come as a Punishment ...
Or an Opportunity for me.
Punishment in a way to be away from my loved ones,
For hours, days, months or years...
or could be...
An Opportunity to evolve myself as a good or rather better human being.
An Opportunity to come nearer to God.
An Opportunity given by God the Almighty for realization!

Time...

There is always a Time for everything.
Nothing comes before Time.
Realization too does not come as we think it will....
In Time everything falls into places...
Like a jig-saw puzzle,
All the pieces are scattered ...
But slowly when Time comes,
Every piece falls into its correct place.
For some it may come fast....
And for some it may come slow.

But life becomes whole one day.

Principle of life

Wisdom...

If you wish your misery to end,


Seek also to loose your wisdom_


The wisdom born of human illusion,


That which lacks the light


Of God's overflowing grace.


The wisdom of this world increases doubt;


The wisdom of Faith releases you into the sky.

                                               Rumi 

Circumstances & Situations

Circumstances are created & situations are made so that you realize, what you are. It ultimately leads you to the goal.

People are born in different circumstances & situations. They are supposed to fight the kind of life given to them.Its not that God created divisions in the society....of rich & poor. Money was not created by God. He created us....the most beautiful creation of all! We have to fight our own situations  & circumstances to make life happy for ourselves & for others too.

God & Life

Known faces....unknown smiles & laughters...
Underlying emotions crossing all barriers rising above...
Wandering through the by lanes gone by...
Card on a window sill...
Gifts peeping from a bag...
false smiles..unknown laughters;
Love thrown all around..sharing & caring each other...
Still known faces...
Unknown smiles...
Unknown laughters..
Looking for a strong hand..
Walking hand in hand in the sand;
Collecting shells & building castles...
reminiscing memories...
Passing by unknown faces;
Unknown places.
Searching for little peace, sharing happiness for a while;
And still happy to keep promises that we have promised.
Loving life whatever it gives.

Because I know & strongly feel,
That this life is not only mine,
But its God's too!!

On Meditation....

The spiritual life does not have gain, honour & fame for its goal, or the attainment of virtue or the attainment of meditative concentration or knowledge & vision. But unshakeable freedom  of mind is the goal of the spiritual life.

Peace of mind & heart

When your Heart & Mind is at peace with the nature.....

You will generate Peace all around you.... on everything & on everybody....

Likewise, if you are disturbed;

It will permeate through you to others, forming a chain;

& travelling from one mind to another..till it gets rest (peace).

Thankfulness!!

My father was posted in Rangpo, Sikkim.Our house was at Sikkim mining corporation area. It was beautiful with a lovely garden in front & lush green courtyard where we had a badminton court. The gate of the house was built with  bougainvillea plant & it looked wonderful. At one corner of the garden stood a mango tree..an old mango tree.


On our (elder sis & elder bro & me) request, a swing was hung on one of the branches of the mango tree. We enjoyed swinging all the time & sometimes our friends too joined & had fun...never thought once about the tree..as I am now..it was an old tree. It was laden with fruits during the summer seasons. My mother use to make jam & pickle out of it. In the afternoons, we all had to sleep....my mother's order. But we never, especially my brother, he always waited for the sound (thud) made by the falling of mango from the tree. He use to run to collect it. In those days I use to hate mangoes. My brother & sister always fought for the mangoes.I was amused to see them fighting for a single mango.


Winter holidays were long. One of my friend use to come to visit her uncle, who was our neighbor. We spent most of our times under the mango tree. We collected small utensils from our kitchens & made small fire & cooked vegetables & rice.Sometimes I could  see my mother at the veranda keeping a watchful eye on us whether everything was alright. Most of the time the food was not cooked properly but we still had it joyfully. How stupid were we..how happily we could eat those tasteless, half-cooked food!!

 I often sat under the tree & watched the ants moving in a line making their way to the holes somewhere in the tree or under it. Sometimes I was surprised to see secretions oozing out of the trunk...I thought that time, the tree might be weeping or its hurt & that's why its oozing blood .....innocent realizations!!....now I know the tree was becoming old.....It had seen & experienced so many things in its life, standing tall in one place for so many years ...how difficult/happy might have been its journey of life....meeting different people, animals, insects, seasons.....if only I could feel & know!! So utterly different from human being who can..talk, move, think.....!


Years after, still when I go to Gangtok, I never miss a chance to try & see the mango tree from the road when I pass from Rangpo & every time my memories come back as if it was yesterday. I don't know whether its there or not but I am always thankful to it for giving me so much happiness in my life.

Magical Healing Mantra: Om Mani Padme Hum

On negativity...

Negative experiences are often the most misleading because we usually take them as a bad sign. But in fact negative experiences in our practice are blessings in disguise. Try not to react to them with aversion as you might normally do, but recognize them instead for what they truly are, merely experiences, illusory & dreamlike. The realization of the true nature of the experience liberates you from the harm of danger of the experience itself, & as a result even a negative experience can become a source of great blessing & accomplishment.
What we have to learn in both meditation & life is to be free of attachment to the good experiences & free of aversion to the negative ones.

     
   Taken from..."The Tibetan Book of Living & Dying" by Sogyal Rinpoche.